All about me syndrome

As I sit and reflect, I see how selfish I used to be (a tendency I suspect I will have to continue to fight). It was all about Anika.  I must admit that I hit the panic button more than once.  Why?

I feared that things would not work out the way I WANTED them to.  I chose to worry and not trust.

Forgiveness was hard because it was all about how much they hurt ME. Roots of bitterness were established.

Consistent hospitality was a challenge because it meant that I would be inconvenienced. I became annoyed when you were in my space uninvited and stayed longer than I wanted.

Hearing “no” or “wait” to a prayer request was difficult because I didn’t like the idea of not getting MY WAY.  I whined and complained and looked for ways to answer my own prayers.

In short my actions proved that I struggled with the ALL ABOUT ME syndrome.

So what has changed?  I am now at a place of greater surrender.  I am learning to get out of the way and not become my own God.

The scales continue to fall from my eyes.  I see myself and realize that it is not always someone else’s fault.  I am learning to admit my guilt and say sorry from a sincere heart.  Pride is being replaced with humility.

I am learning to keep the doors of my heart and home open. There is so much beauty and joy in fellowship and vulnerability.

I am learning that WAIT is not a bad word. Much is learned in the process.  I learn to worship from a pure heart.  I see God in new ways and I fall deeper in love. Gratitude becomes the song of my heart.  In the waiting I learn that He is enough. SIMPLY ENOUGH.

I am learning that real freedom comes when I imitate Christ, taking the focus off of myself, and making it all about God’s will.  How about you, do you struggle with the all about me syndrome?


Anika Jones

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Anika Jones

Hello there! I am Anika and I am definitely one of those. Passion oozes from every fiber of my being. I love to love. Sounds cheesy, I know, but I already told you that I am one of those kinds of people. Read on to find out some more interesting facts about me… 1. I love me some Jesus. I love to testify and if you hang around me long enough you may hear me bragging on the awesomeness of God, like how • He gave me a house I couldn't afford • Healed two of my children • Gave me a yes when I wanted to say no 2. I married a younger man…OK, not really. I was 23 while he was 22. My birthday is in April and his in August, but it’s our running joke. Nevertheless, after 13 years of marriage, I happen to love him deeply, and it still makes for a great story. 3. I have experienced the pain of two miscarriages and the joy of delivering 6 children (3 boys and 3 girls). I have both a bachelors and masters degree from the University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign in Early Childhood Education, which I put to good use staying home with the kiddos. 4. I attend an awesome church where my husband is the Assistant Pastor. I am also a part of a not for profit organization that encourages women to walk in their God given purpose. 5. I am addicted to prayer. 6. I am considered nice by most, definitely extreme by design. I am politically incorrect. 7. I take the scenic route when telling a story, but I promise if you hang on long enough, I eventually get to the punch line. 8. I have great ideas but I sometimes procrastinate. Jesus and I are working on that one. 9. I am guilty of overthinking things (refer to number 8). 10. I am originally from Jamaica. Surprise…sunshine and coconuts are two of my favorite things. 11. I subscribe to the Paleo Diet and actually did a round of Whole 30. 12. I love to experiment in the kitchen. 13. I make an absolute mess when I cook. I try to clean as I go but get distracted with cooking. Go figure. (My family doesn't always enjoy my cooking but I make them eat it anyway.) 14. I love people and enjoy talking to them—even the weird ones. I tried being otherwise but found it doesn't suit me well, so I'm learning to be okay with being me. 15. I have traction alopecia and wear wigs and am crazy enough to believe God for restoring my hair follicles even though the doctors have said otherwise. 16. A movie is considered good only if it makes me cry...more than once. Sound of Music happens to be my all time favorite. 17. I really wish I sang well. I really don't. 18. Telling people about Jesus is my favorite past time. And if I'm not talking about Him, I'm talking about my family or some random health fact I learned on Google. 19. I love redemption stories and happy endings, that’s why I said yes to Jesus. Feel like you know me a little more? Well good! Please continue to stop by my little corner of cyber world. And do leave a comment. Remember I love to talk to people!

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Ron Coulter

Lady Anika,

You might want to consider writing a book with excerpts from each one of your blogs (based on category of course). This short but direct blog is like taking medicine that is good for me but I didn’t think was for me. Great job Dr. Anika

    Anika Jones

    Thank you for the words of of encouragement. I have actually began the process of writing a book…please keep me in your prayers! 🙂

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