Goodbye Shame!

 

Goodbye shame
We have to break up

I know this all seem so impulsive

I mean it was just yesterday that I had on a long braided wig that covered what I didn’t want the world to see

And then all of a sudden, I grab a razor and shaved the little hair alopecia left behind

Then I had the nerve to get in front of a camera

Without a wig

And  showed  everyone watching

ME

But this wasn’t all of a sudden, truth is I have been thinking about saying goodbye for years

But I didn’t have the courage to walk away

Until now

You see this has been a very controlling and abusive relationship
I didn’t know who I was
You robbed me of my identity
I doubted and denied who God created me to be

You had me dancing to the beat or your drums
And I was out of step
I listened to your songs of doubt and insecurities that played loud in my ear
They often drowned out the tender assurance of love my savior was singing to me

This goodbye has been a long time coming
I’ve tried to kick you out before
However when you came knocking again I opened the door

BUT

There is only so much a person pregnant with purpose can take

You see this relationship is just so toxic and I am afraid that if I stay, I will miscarry my destiny.  So I am deciding to take the risk and step out.
I told you before, chains don’t look good on me because the blood of Jesus declares I am free
I became confident as I read God’s love letters to me
His words spoke to my spirit and unveiled my true identity

This relationship created an odd sense of comfort
Because you have been in my life for so long
But I am ready to move forward
I am ready to fully embrace my purpose
And you just don’t fit into where God is taking me

Now let me tell you something shame,

Don’t you try to send your cousins, fear and insecurity to try to talk me out of this breakup
I have tasted freedom and it’s quite addictive
Oh I am fully aware that you will come knocking again
But this breakup is final
I make no apologies
Plain and simple, it’s over
Goodbye shame!

Question for reflection?

  1. As we approach a new year, what/who do you have to say goodbye to?  In order to move forward, some relationships must come to an end.  Pray and ask the Lord to give you the courage to say goodbye so you can move forward in your purpose.

Be Blessed!

Anika

 

 

Anika Jones

About the Author

Anika Jones

Hello there! I am Anika and I am definitely one of those. Passion oozes from every fiber of my being. I love to love. Sounds cheesy, I know, but I already told you that I am one of those kinds of people. Read on to find out some more interesting facts about me… 1. I love me some Jesus. I love to testify and if you hang around me long enough you may hear me bragging on the awesomeness of God, like how • He gave me a house I couldn't afford • Healed two of my children • Gave me a yes when I wanted to say no 2. I married a younger man…OK, not really. I was 23 while he was 22. My birthday is in April and his in August, but it’s our running joke. Nevertheless, after 13 years of marriage, I happen to love him deeply, and it still makes for a great story. 3. I have experienced the pain of two miscarriages and the joy of delivering 6 children (3 boys and 3 girls). I have both a bachelors and masters degree from the University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign in Early Childhood Education, which I put to good use staying home with the kiddos. 4. I attend an awesome church where my husband is the Assistant Pastor. I am also a part of a not for profit organization that encourages women to walk in their God given purpose. 5. I am addicted to prayer. 6. I am considered nice by most, definitely extreme by design. I am politically incorrect. 7. I take the scenic route when telling a story, but I promise if you hang on long enough, I eventually get to the punch line. 8. I have great ideas but I sometimes procrastinate. Jesus and I are working on that one. 9. I am guilty of overthinking things (refer to number 8). 10. I am originally from Jamaica. Surprise…sunshine and coconuts are two of my favorite things. 11. I subscribe to the Paleo Diet and actually did a round of Whole 30. 12. I love to experiment in the kitchen. 13. I make an absolute mess when I cook. I try to clean as I go but get distracted with cooking. Go figure. (My family doesn't always enjoy my cooking but I make them eat it anyway.) 14. I love people and enjoy talking to them—even the weird ones. I tried being otherwise but found it doesn't suit me well, so I'm learning to be okay with being me. 15. I have traction alopecia and wear wigs and am crazy enough to believe God for restoring my hair follicles even though the doctors have said otherwise. 16. A movie is considered good only if it makes me cry...more than once. Sound of Music happens to be my all time favorite. 17. I really wish I sang well. I really don't. 18. Telling people about Jesus is my favorite past time. And if I'm not talking about Him, I'm talking about my family or some random health fact I learned on Google. 19. I love redemption stories and happy endings, that’s why I said yes to Jesus. Feel like you know me a little more? Well good! Please continue to stop by my little corner of cyber world. And do leave a comment. Remember I love to talk to people!

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Myriam Borrayo

Well I just have to say that you are beaUtiful!I’ve always thought that. You’ve always been an inspiration even through your own insecurities that I hardly can tell exist. I thank you though for being real open and making it safe for people to have insecurities and still feel like they can contribute something.

    Anika Jones

    Thank you Myrian! Being transparent is freeing!

glenda

Wow! Powerful..I am tremendously happy to see your chains broken…You are beautiful,free and full of wisdom….Just know that your goodbye shame will give many others courage to say goodbye and hello to freedom….Thank you for allowing God to use you as a model to be yourself.

    Anika Jones

    Amen Sis Glenda! Thank you so much for your encouragement!

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