I am ready to let go and move on

There are parts of me that are fragile. Scarred from past hurts.  I love God. I do.  But sometimes I don’t look like He wants me to.  He has been showing me things.  About me.  Ugly things that I have been carrying. Things I need to let go of to go to the next level. To be promoted. Things that I didn’t want to let go of…until now.  Yes I have prayed about it before, but I still held on because I felt justified.  But I recently found myself crying and confiding in God, “I don’t know how to let it go God, but I want to.  I really do.  It is too heavy.  I don’t know how to let go of the pain, the offense, the hurt, the pride, false expectations, the jealously.”  But then He whispered, ” you don’t have to let go in your own strength you just have to desire to be purged of these things,  your desire for freedom invites me in to do my job….deliver.”

 

 

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So I wept real hot tears.  Tears of freedom.  I felt the weight lifting, and I am being transformed…again. Always another level to go to but promotion always starts from the inside.  It is freeing to surrender these insecurities and scars to God. No judgment, no condemnation from Him.  Only pure love from my daddy.  He is always gently confirming that He is worthy of my love.

So today I share my heart with you, not to glorify my weaknesses but to glorify a God who strengthens the weak.  A God who understands the complexities of our past but challenges us to live beyond that because the blood of His son made it right. Made me new.   I am making the choice to let go and move on.

 

10 thoughts on “I am ready to let go and move on”

  1. lashanda says:

    Amen! this post was so on time for me personally. this line stuck out to me most “Always another level to go to but promotion always starts from the inside. It is freeing to surrender these insecurities and scars to God. No judgment, no condemnation from Him. Only pure love from my daddy. He is always gently confirming that He is worthy of my love.” amen amen amen! thank you for sharing your heart!

    1. Anika Jones says:

      Glad it blessed you. I continue to be amazed at how loving God is toward us. Sometimes we see our deficits and expect God to just blast us, but He is so patient and loving. He can do a lot with a surrendered heart.:)

  2. Jaime says:

    This really hit home for me! I’m in this place right now. I want to let go, I’ve asked God to help me let go. At night I stay awake and think about all the awful things and I lose sleep over it. I’m done. I want to free of all this, I will continue to pray and I know God will deliver. Your post is beautiful sis!

    1. Anika Jones says:

      I am glad you were blessed by this post. Praying that you walk in all that we discussed in Titus 2 on yesterday, remember you are now a new woman :). Continue to meditate on Colossians 3, this will certainly help to keep you in a place of freedom.

  3. Donielle says:

    Thank you for your transparency.

    1. Anika Jones says:

      You are welcome.

  4. Christine says:

    I am greatful for this message , iam struggling to connect with god on another and I am not sure how to let go but your message and faith just encourage me thank you cuz love you

    1. Anika Jones says:

      Hi Christine, I am glad you were encouraged by this post. Holding on to past offenses can be very toxic to our relationship with God and with others. It cripples us in so many ways. Continue to put it before God and ask Him to let His desires become your desires (forgiveness being one of them). He gives the grace for us to do what we can’t do in our own strength. Praying for new level of freedom for you today. Love you too! 🙂

  5. Beautifully put. It is difficult to let go of the things you mentioned and so easy to put the blame on others when all God wants us to do is surrender it ALL to HIM. PTL!

    1. Anika Jones says:

      I totally agree. I have been guilty of putting the blame on others, indirectly justifying why I should not have to forgive. But God knows how to shine the light right back on us, inviting us to surrender it all to Him.

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