I am ready to let go and move on

There are parts of me that are fragile. Scarred from past hurts.  I love God. I do.  But sometimes I don’t look like He wants me to.  He has been showing me things.  About me.  Ugly things that I have been carrying. Things I need to let go of to go to the next level. To be promoted. Things that I didn’t want to let go of…until now.  Yes I have prayed about it before, but I still held on because I felt justified.  But I recently found myself crying and confiding in God, “I don’t know how to let it go God, but I want to.  I really do.  It is too heavy.  I don’t know how to let go of the pain, the offense, the hurt, the pride, false expectations, the jealously.”  But then He whispered, ” you don’t have to let go in your own strength you just have to desire to be purged of these things,  your desire for freedom invites me in to do my job….deliver.”

 

 

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So I wept real hot tears.  Tears of freedom.  I felt the weight lifting, and I am being transformed…again. Always another level to go to but promotion always starts from the inside.  It is freeing to surrender these insecurities and scars to God. No judgment, no condemnation from Him.  Only pure love from my daddy.  He is always gently confirming that He is worthy of my love.

So today I share my heart with you, not to glorify my weaknesses but to glorify a God who strengthens the weak.  A God who understands the complexities of our past but challenges us to live beyond that because the blood of His son made it right. Made me new.   I am making the choice to let go and move on.

 

Anika Jones

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Anika Jones

Hello there! I am Anika and I am definitely one of those. Passion oozes from every fiber of my being. I love to love. Sounds cheesy, I know, but I already told you that I am one of those kinds of people. Read on to find out some more interesting facts about me… 1. I love me some Jesus. I love to testify and if you hang around me long enough you may hear me bragging on the awesomeness of God, like how • He gave me a house I couldn't afford • Healed two of my children • Gave me a yes when I wanted to say no 2. I married a younger man…OK, not really. I was 23 while he was 22. My birthday is in April and his in August, but it’s our running joke. Nevertheless, after 13 years of marriage, I happen to love him deeply, and it still makes for a great story. 3. I have experienced the pain of two miscarriages and the joy of delivering 6 children (3 boys and 3 girls). I have both a bachelors and masters degree from the University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign in Early Childhood Education, which I put to good use staying home with the kiddos. 4. I attend an awesome church where my husband is the Assistant Pastor. I am also a part of a not for profit organization that encourages women to walk in their God given purpose. 5. I am addicted to prayer. 6. I am considered nice by most, definitely extreme by design. I am politically incorrect. 7. I take the scenic route when telling a story, but I promise if you hang on long enough, I eventually get to the punch line. 8. I have great ideas but I sometimes procrastinate. Jesus and I are working on that one. 9. I am guilty of overthinking things (refer to number 8). 10. I am originally from Jamaica. Surprise…sunshine and coconuts are two of my favorite things. 11. I subscribe to the Paleo Diet and actually did a round of Whole 30. 12. I love to experiment in the kitchen. 13. I make an absolute mess when I cook. I try to clean as I go but get distracted with cooking. Go figure. (My family doesn't always enjoy my cooking but I make them eat it anyway.) 14. I love people and enjoy talking to them—even the weird ones. I tried being otherwise but found it doesn't suit me well, so I'm learning to be okay with being me. 15. I have traction alopecia and wear wigs and am crazy enough to believe God for restoring my hair follicles even though the doctors have said otherwise. 16. A movie is considered good only if it makes me cry...more than once. Sound of Music happens to be my all time favorite. 17. I really wish I sang well. I really don't. 18. Telling people about Jesus is my favorite past time. And if I'm not talking about Him, I'm talking about my family or some random health fact I learned on Google. 19. I love redemption stories and happy endings, that’s why I said yes to Jesus. Feel like you know me a little more? Well good! Please continue to stop by my little corner of cyber world. And do leave a comment. Remember I love to talk to people!

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lashanda Lewis

Amen! this post was so on time for me personally. this line stuck out to me most “Always another level to go to but promotion always starts from the inside. It is freeing to surrender these insecurities and scars to God. No judgment, no condemnation from Him. Only pure love from my daddy. He is always gently confirming that He is worthy of my love.” amen amen amen! thank you for sharing your heart!

    Anika Jones

    Glad it blessed you. I continue to be amazed at how loving God is toward us. Sometimes we see our deficits and expect God to just blast us, but He is so patient and loving. He can do a lot with a surrendered heart.:)

Jaime

This really hit home for me! I’m in this place right now. I want to let go, I’ve asked God to help me let go. At night I stay awake and think about all the awful things and I lose sleep over it. I’m done. I want to free of all this, I will continue to pray and I know God will deliver. Your post is beautiful sis!

    Anika Jones

    I am glad you were blessed by this post. Praying that you walk in all that we discussed in Titus 2 on yesterday, remember you are now a new woman :). Continue to meditate on Colossians 3, this will certainly help to keep you in a place of freedom.

D Robinson

Thank you for your transparency.

    Anika Jones

    You are welcome.

Christine

I am greatful for this message , iam struggling to connect with god on another and I am not sure how to let go but your message and faith just encourage me thank you cuz love you

    Anika Jones

    Hi Christine, I am glad you were encouraged by this post. Holding on to past offenses can be very toxic to our relationship with God and with others. It cripples us in so many ways. Continue to put it before God and ask Him to let His desires become your desires (forgiveness being one of them). He gives the grace for us to do what we can’t do in our own strength. Praying for new level of freedom for you today. Love you too! 🙂

cjc51

Beautifully put. It is difficult to let go of the things you mentioned and so easy to put the blame on others when all God wants us to do is surrender it ALL to HIM. PTL!

    Anika Jones

    I totally agree. I have been guilty of putting the blame on others, indirectly justifying why I should not have to forgive. But God knows how to shine the light right back on us, inviting us to surrender it all to Him.

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