I Can’t But I Will
This is another post from my 2012 archives. Be blessed!
A few weeks ago, I did something that I did not think was possible. I. RAN. FOR. TWO. MILES. WITHOUT. STOPPING! Don’t ask me how long it took, that’s not even the point of the story, don’t steal my moment. Ok so back to my story, I ran the entire 8 laps on the outdoor track without stopping. I started off with failure in mind, no determination to actually run the entire distance. Before I began, I had already concluded that it was too difficult and not possible. BEFORE I STARTED I CAME TO THIS CONCLUSION!
I ran the first lap and decided that it was too hard and that I would just walk the other one, alternating running and walking until I completed the 8 laps. BUT THEN sheer determination kicked in after the first lap, I thought, “hey I just ran one, why not two, and then I will walk the third.” I completed the 3rd lap and thought, “not too bad, why I don’t just keep going?” I had this conversation with myself and before I knew it, well a little while after, I had ran all 8 laps. When I came to the 8th lap and had a few more yards in front of me, I mustered up enough strength to sprint the last few yards. Ok, so to others it would have been a fast jog but for me, I was sprinting. AND THEN SWEET VICTORY WHEN MY FEET CROSSED THE FINISH LINE. I accomplished something I didn’t think was possible. Isn’t this how it can sometimes be with our walk with Christ? Many times we see what God is requiring of us, and before we even start we tell God we can’t, it is just not possible. I have had the” I just can’t do it, I don’t see how” speech with God so many times. I realize that while my mouth is saying I CANT, when I take a closer look what my unsurrendered heart is really saying is I DON’T WANT TO.
However like I learned that day on the track, if you are willing, it is possible. In my relationship with God, I find that He is not asking if I can do it in my own strength, it is more, ARE YOU WILLING TO DO IT? When I am willing, He gives me the strength to carry out the task, His grace kicks in. People often tell me how impressed they are at my ability to mother these five children but on my really humble days, instead of basking in the compliments, I am willing to admit that I am not doing this on my own. I am operating on sheer grace. Truth be told, I have moments where I am at an absolute lost and don’t know how to respond when everyone is having a meltdown, INCLUDING ME! God is not at all concerned about your ability, He is more focused and your WILLINGNESS. Your willingness points to your surrender, and I find that I can’t really surrender to someone that I don’t trust. If there is an absence of trust, then this diminishes the quality of the relationship. OUCH! Tough truth to swallow but truth nevertheless.
What is God asking you to do that you have already said no to before you even start? Is it a closer relationship with Him? Is it a career move, a relationship? More sacrifice in your giving, service, use of your talents? Are you allowing the enemy to whisper thoughts of defeat telling you that you have been down this path before, and you will fail again? Go ahead I encourage you to take one step in that direction and watch God’s grace kick in to accomplish what you deem to be impossible!
Philippians 2:13 NLT
For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases him.
2 Corinthians 12:9 NLT
Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.
About the Author
Hello there! I am Anika and I am definitely one of those. Passion oozes from every fiber of my being. I love to love. Sounds cheesy, I know, but I already told you that I am one of those kinds of people. Read on to find out some more interesting facts about me… 1. I love me some Jesus. I love to testify and if you hang around me long enough you may hear me bragging on the awesomeness of God, like how • He gave me a house I couldn't afford • Healed two of my children • Gave me a yes when I wanted to say no 2. I married a younger man…OK, not really. I was 23 while he was 22. My birthday is in April and his in August, but it’s our running joke. Nevertheless, after 13 years of marriage, I happen to love him deeply, and it still makes for a great story. 3. I have experienced the pain of two miscarriages and the joy of delivering 6 children (3 boys and 3 girls). I have both a bachelors and masters degree from the University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign in Early Childhood Education, which I put to good use staying home with the kiddos. 4. I attend an awesome church where my husband is the Assistant Pastor. I am also a part of a not for profit organization that encourages women to walk in their God given purpose. 5. I am addicted to prayer. 6. I am considered nice by most, definitely extreme by design. I am politically incorrect. 7. I take the scenic route when telling a story, but I promise if you hang on long enough, I eventually get to the punch line. 8. I have great ideas but I sometimes procrastinate. Jesus and I are working on that one. 9. I am guilty of overthinking things (refer to number 8). 10. I am originally from Jamaica. Surprise…sunshine and coconuts are two of my favorite things. 11. I subscribe to the Paleo Diet and actually did a round of Whole 30. 12. I love to experiment in the kitchen. 13. I make an absolute mess when I cook. I try to clean as I go but get distracted with cooking. Go figure. (My family doesn't always enjoy my cooking but I make them eat it anyway.) 14. I love people and enjoy talking to them—even the weird ones. I tried being otherwise but found it doesn't suit me well, so I'm learning to be okay with being me. 15. I have traction alopecia and wear wigs and am crazy enough to believe God for restoring my hair follicles even though the doctors have said otherwise. 16. A movie is considered good only if it makes me cry...more than once. Sound of Music happens to be my all time favorite. 17. I really wish I sang well. I really don't. 18. Telling people about Jesus is my favorite past time. And if I'm not talking about Him, I'm talking about my family or some random health fact I learned on Google. 19. I love redemption stories and happy endings, that’s why I said yes to Jesus. Feel like you know me a little more? Well good! Please continue to stop by my little corner of cyber world. And do leave a comment. Remember I love to talk to people!