There are parts of me that are fragile. Scarred from past hurts. I love God. I do. But sometimes I don’t look like He wants me to. He has been showing me things. About me. Ugly things that I have been carrying. Things I need to let go of to go to the next level. To be promoted. Things that I didn’t want to let go of…until now. Yes I have prayed about it before, but I still held on because I felt justified. But I recently found myself crying and confiding in God, “I don’t know how to let it go God, but I want to. I really do. It is too heavy. I don’t know how to let go of the pain, the offense, the hurt, the pride, false expectations, the jealously.” But then He whispered, ” you don’t have to let go in your own strength you just have to desire to be purged of these things, your desire for freedom invites me in to do my job….deliver.”
So I wept real hot tears. Tears of freedom. I felt the weight lifting, and I am being transformed…again. Always another level to go to but promotion always starts from the inside. It is freeing to surrender these insecurities and scars to God. No judgment, no condemnation from Him. Only pure love from my daddy. He is always gently confirming that He is worthy of my love.
So today I share my heart with you, not to glorify my weaknesses but to glorify a God who strengthens the weak. A God who understands the complexities of our past but challenges us to live beyond that because the blood of His son made it right. Made me new. I am making the choice to let go and move on.
My children excel in telling on each other. There are six of them, so there are many opportunities for disagreements throughout the course of the day. When things get a little rough, you can hear one of them shouting, “I am going to tell daddy/mommy on you.” When they feel they are losing the battle, they give up on arguing and run straight to either Tyrone or I to pour out their distress. When they tell on each other, they hold nothing back. Raw emotions are spilled out and no stone is left unturned. They are not worried about composure; how it looks or sounds. If the offense is great, there are even real hot crocodile tears.
If only we could take a page out of their book. Instead of fighting and trying to prove our point, defend ourselves, fight our own battles we should run and tell our heavenly father all about it in prayer. Tyrone and I may be annoyed at all the telling and rarely do we invite them to tell us all the Nitti gritty but not so with our heavenly father. He lovingly invites us to come. Tell Him all, hold nothing back in prayer. Cast It. Throw it. Give Him all of our worries to Him. Why? He cares for us. Lovingly and perfectly. He cares for me. He cares for you. Don’t worry about trying to find the words, just pour it all out to your daddy. Don’t try to hold back the tears, let them flow. Your tears and raw emotions are safe with Him. You can be vulnerable.
After the kids get through telling, we often ask them what their part in the offense was. Be prepared to hear and RECEIVE God’s response after you are done telling. God is masterful at showing us ourselves, things that we didn’t and would prefer not to see. He doesn’t show us to make us feel hopeless but rather that we will be transformed to be like Him. I often go telling on someone in prayer only for God to show me how I am also a guilty party in the matter. He shows me my need to repent, my need to see His perspective. Telling is as much about God correcting my offender as it is about God lovingly correcting me. So when you go telling, be humble enough to receive the response. Yes He comforts, but because we are His children, He also corrects.
So the next time that husband, that coworker, that child, that friend now turn enemy pushes don’t push back in your flesh, only complicating the matter. Run and go tell your daddy on them in prayer.
Sin is rampant and the church is scared to to talk about it. Some who are claiming to be followers of Christ are taking part in the same sins God speaks against in His word. And if we are not actively doing it, we plant ourselves right in front of the TV watching shows that glorify some of the very sins God detest. The very ones that will keep us out of heaven. Whose standards are we trying to live up to? Who sets the bar, when were we given permision to change God’s word and His standards… how arrogrant. I am certain it pains the heart of God. We are caught up in unfruitful conversations instead of assuming a posture of repentance and prayer and demonstrating the power of God.
We should not name the name of Christ if we are not willing to
Embrace being persecuted and not be afraid of loosing relationships because you refuse to deny Christ with your words and ACTIONS.
Embrace truth and call sin S.I.N. and ditch every attempt to be politically correct in an effort to be LIKED on facebook and beyond.
Embrace ministering to the sinner with grace and love, not afraid to speak the truth because you live in a constant awareness that hell is real.
I used to be a SINNER and by God’s grace I am now saved. I am now a saint of the most high God, and I am called to live up to His standards. He didnt save me for me to keep on with the same mess I used to be in, flirting with sin. I have to choose EVERYDAY to embrace my new identity in Christ and walk according to the spirit and not the flesh. This is not true for only me but for every saint…we were saved to be a light. So come on church, let us stand up and stand out by HIS grace and do so without apology.
I am so excited that a few of my readers decided to begin working out after reading this post. Way to go Koya and Lashanda. By the way Lashanda has a new single on amazon that would be great to play as you are working out. If you choose to purchase her single, please consider doing it through amazon smile and choose my church Faith Covenant Fellowship (Hoffman Estates is our given location) as your charity to support and the church will receive a donation from your purchase.
For those who would like to begin working out and need some suggestions you can visit my youtube channel. There is a playlist of exercises I do in the comfort of my own home. Some of the workouts require dumbbells. I have sets of 5 lb., 8lb., and 15 lb. weights that I purchased at walmart. Some of the workouts do not require any equipment. Happy working out!
I gave birth in 2003, 2005, 2007, 2009, 2011, and 2013. In between all of that I had two miscarriages, one in 2006 and another in 2008. I think it’s fair to say that my body has been through quite an adventure. After each birth, I was left with a sweet baby and some extra pounds as a souvenir of the journey. I was not one of those moms who lost all the baby weight while nursing. I would have loved for that to have been my testimony but it was not. I have found what works for MY BODY to be healthy without counting calories and spending hours working out. I follow the Paleo diet 90% of the time. I also work out five days a week in the comfort of my home for 10-20 minutes in the morning. My short workouts are better than doing nothing at all.
My body certainly doesn’t look like the girl I knew before child birth and I am learning to be ok with that. I can’t obsess about returning to what was, just work on keeping healthy what now is (not sure if that’s grammatically correct but you get the point…right?) I have tried to return to old eating habits (mainly consuming way too much sugar) and not only does it pack on the pounds but it also brings some not so pleasant side effects. After a really long morning a few weeks ago, I found myself hiding out in the pantry with my twenty month old eating just about all the caramel flavored popcorn from Costco. I was so convicted at the end of the day, not because eating caramel popcorn is a sin but because at that moment I was being gluttonous and using the sugar as my god and comforter. I was certainly not hungry at the time, just extremely irritated. Prayer should have been my recourse not sugar! I have to continue to ask God for the grace to exerciseself-control to do what I know is right for my body to be healthy.
My choice to eat healthy and exercise has a trickle-down effect with both natural and spiritual implications. When I eat and exercise like I should, I have more energy to effectively fulfill my call to be the keeper of my home. My sleep is better which in turn helps me to get up feeling well rested giving me quality time in prayer and bible study. I am not as emotional and snappy. Ok…I still have my moments but they are not as frequent. I am not constantly in a brain fog because I have consumed all the wrong things.
So to answer the question, does Jesus really care about my eating habits and my overall health…yes, He absolutely does! I know from personal experiences that He directs His children in EVERY AREA. If you have not done so already ask Him what the best health plan is for you. If He has already told you what to do…OBEY! My goal to be the healthiest me for this season of life now goes beyond vanity. However I must confess that this was the initial motivation. I recognize that my body is a temple of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19-20) and also its God’s desire for me to be healthy in body as I am strong in spirit (3 John 1:2). Hear me when I say that the goal for every woman should not be to look like the model on the magazine. We are all built differently and not everyone was intended to look the same. Instead, be driven by the desire to please God by taking care of the temple He has given you.
I don’t want you to walk away from this post feeling condemned because you struggle in maintaining healthy eating habits and are challenged with the idea of consistently working out. Instead I pray that you walk away feeling encouraged to do what you know is needed believing the Lord to extend His grace as you make up your mind to walk in obedience. Let us take this journey together, striving to be healthy so that we can be used even the more for God’s glory! Are you on board? Leave a comment below to let me know.