Goodbye Shame!

 

Goodbye shame
We have to break up

I know this all seem so impulsive

I mean it was just yesterday that I had on a long braided wig that covered what I didn’t want the world to see

And then all of a sudden, I grab a razor and shaved the little hair alopecia left behind

Then I had the nerve to get in front of a camera

Without a wig

And  showed  everyone watching

ME

But this wasn’t all of a sudden, truth is I have been thinking about saying goodbye for years

But I didn’t have the courage to walk away

Until now

You see this has been a very controlling and abusive relationship
I didn’t know who I was
You robbed me of my identity
I doubted and denied who God created me to be

You had me dancing to the beat or your drums
And I was out of step
I listened to your songs of doubt and insecurities that played loud in my ear
They often drowned out the tender assurance of love my savior was singing to me

This goodbye has been a long time coming
I’ve tried to kick you out before
However when you came knocking again I opened the door

BUT

There is only so much a person pregnant with purpose can take

You see this relationship is just so toxic and I am afraid that if I stay, I will miscarry my destiny.  So I am deciding to take the risk and step out.
I told you before, chains don’t look good on me because the blood of Jesus declares I am free
I became confident as I read God’s love letters to me
His words spoke to my spirit and unveiled my true identity

This relationship created an odd sense of comfort
Because you have been in my life for so long
But I am ready to move forward
I am ready to fully embrace my purpose
And you just don’t fit into where God is taking me

Now let me tell you something shame,

Don’t you try to send your cousins, fear and insecurity to try to talk me out of this breakup
I have tasted freedom and it’s quite addictive
Oh I am fully aware that you will come knocking again
But this breakup is final
I make no apologies
Plain and simple, it’s over
Goodbye shame!

Question for reflection?

  1. As we approach a new year, what/who do you have to say goodbye to?  In order to move forward, some relationships must come to an end.  Pray and ask the Lord to give you the courage to say goodbye so you can move forward in your purpose.

Be Blessed!

Anika

 

 

Have You Embraced Your Purpose?

So you are going to use me huh?

I feel you Jeremiah and Moses

I got some excuses too

But what was that about Him being God and His thoughts not being our thoughts?

His ways not being our ways?

Truth is I got some thoughts

And ways?  Boy I got some ways to accomplish those thoughts

But then again, He didn’t ask for my opinions or my strategies

He tells me that I was called before I was born

He gave me a purpose that I can’t fulfill in my own strength

It used to be that when He told me my purpose I would get excited, really excited

Like special excited

But then I would think too hard and become deflated

No way can you use me like that, but wait you are God

I wasn’t really saying you can’t

I dug a little deeper and what my insecure heart was really saying is No way do you want to use me like that

No way do you think enough of me to promote me like that

To sum it all up…  No way do you love me like that

That USED TO be my response birth from an insecure heart

But this time around, it’s different

The chains have fallen, my ears are unclogged

I hear what you say

And confidence IN YOU rises IN ME

I grab a hold of every word and I MOVE

I RUN

I MEAN I FLY

No more hiding, that’s so yesterday!

Dear Daddy, I hear and receive what you think of me

I receive the plans you have for me

I.  RECEIVE. YOUR. LOVE.

LET’S GO!

STEPPING INTO MY DESTINY

Forward

You are taking me to a place I’ve never been before
But I dont have to fear, I don’t have to fear
I. DONT. HAVE. TO. FEAR.
I must remind myself because the temptation is there
I can be confident because you have proven that you are on my side
As you lead Jesus, teach me to follow with a surrendered heart
Even when I don’t understand
Even when it means giving of myself beyond what I think is possible
Even when what you are telling me is contrary to what I want or what I think is best
Help me to have a joyful yes

 

There is absolutely no turning back for me
As I have put my hand to the plow, by your grace I refuse to look back
Look back to death
Look back to shame
Look back to pride
Look back to my agenda
Look back to people pleasing

 

You are taking me somewhere
I know
I don’t know how the pieces of the puzzle are going to come together
But I give you the pieces and trust you know how
I don’t know how you will word my mouth
But I will speak at your command
I hear what you are saying and if I think too hard, I become overwhelmed
Teach me not to reason but to rest
I keep my eyes on you as  you take me FORWARD!