The Father invites us to come and pray about our past pain until we are healed. There is not a limit on our counseling sessions with Him. We know we are healed when we can see with clarity how God allowed that pain to work together for our good. One of the best “goods” that come from bringing our pain to God is the intimacy that is developed between us. I’ve seen God in a way that I have never seen Him before because of deep wounds that I kept bringing to Him.
The desperation that comes from wanting to be healed has a way of breaking down false pretense and formalities in prayers. I have experienced characteristics of God that were veiled because of legalism. When I am vulnerable with Him in prayer about my pain, I suddenly realize that He is not a distant God who is always looking for me to get it right. Instead I come to know Him as a loving Father who wants to guide me with His truth. I no longer see Him as this God who is pointing His finger telling me to get over it and toughen up. Instead I see Him as a compassionate and patient father who extends His grace and helps me to walk the path to maturity.
I also know that I have been healed when thanksgiving and praise flows from my lips instead of venom. The praise doesn’t come from a place of naivety. Instead it comes from a deeper revelation of the goodness and sovereignty of God and His ability to redeem our pain when we come to Him. It is in the coming that we see how God used what the enemy intended to harm us with, as a launching pad for where He, God, wanted to take us. When we are healed we look back on our painful experiences, not wishing they would happen again, but thanking God for His ability to bring beauty from pain.
Keep coming to drink from the healing well
Keep coming to drop the weight at His feet
Because it is in the coming
That healing takes Place
Isaiah 61:3 (NLT)
To all who mourn in Israel, he will give a crown of beauty for ashes, a joyous blessing instead of mourning, festive praise instead of despair. In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks that the LORD has planted for his own glory.
Romans 8:28 (NLT)
And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.
I have been on quite a journey with my health and I have had to take some extreme measures. There were things going on inside of my body that I was unaware of, things that a routine visit to the doctor didn’t catch. My gut was in desperate need of healing and I had no idea. I would just see the outward manifestation of an internal issue. The problem was not on the surface, it went beyond what the eye could see. It was not until they took extensive blood work that things began to be revealed. There is something about the blood that reveals truth. So the Lord has been leading me and I have had to make even more extreme changes to my diet. It is not always easy but I am beginning to see lasting results and I am motivated. Desperation has a way of creating discipline.
Isn’t this how it is with our walk with the Lord? People can see us from the outside and we look spiritually healthy but there can be issues with our spiritual gut so to speak. Issues that we can try to veil with our nice church faces and scriptures we have memorized. Sometimes we wear a mask for so long that we even begin to fool ourselves and are totally oblivious to our need for spiritual healing. But it is only a matter of time until these issues begin to manifest through such symptoms as pride, unforgiveness, rebellion, murmuring, and discontentment. Once the Lord makes us aware of our issues, we may start off determined and disciplined to walk the road to deliverance. But with time we can grow weary and slip back into old habits and open the door to the enemy all over again. I am here to remind you that the way to deliverance and healing is extreme but the end results are well worth it! Stay the course, obey what you know to do and allow the Lord to perform the healing that He wants to do in you!
I am so honored to feature the writing of Donielle Robinson. Donielle has such a servant’s heart and has been a huge blessing to my family. She has willingly babysat my children, offered words of encouragement and read just about every post I have published from when I first started blogging. The Lord has done a great work in her and the process continues. I hope you are as blessed by this post as I was.
This weekend, my friend Jill decided to come and make my house cute which is a prayer answered. We were able to fix up a few things and make my house look cute. We did not finish everything, but we made some major improvements. My room now looks like a hotel. We worked on several projects including my dresser. She painted my dresser and found that some of the drawers needed additional screws and fixed them. I didn’t even know they were broken. This reminded me of how God works in our lives.
When we have a yes in our spirit, and embrace God’s will for our lives, He fixes areas we didn’t even know were broken. Like my dresser,we do not know it’s broken or we may get so used to living with a deficit that we don’t think things will change. This year has been a year of brokenness for me from my phone to my health (and other areas). I am thankful for the brokenness because God has delivered me from long standing issues, answered prayers and increases my faith. So as you wait for prayers to be answered,situations to change,etc embrace the process. Learn. Grow. Be challenged. Ask for help. Praise Him in Advance. Find your hope knowing God is in control.
Psalm 100:1-5 NIV
Shout for joy to the Lord , all the earth. Worship the Lord with gladness; come before him with joyful songs. Know that the Lord is God. It is he who made us, and we are his ; we are his people, the sheep of his pasture. Enter his gates with thanksgiving and his courts with praise; give thanks to him and praise his name. For the Lord is good and his love endures forever; his faithfulness continues through all generations.
I am bald but my baldness doesn’t define who I am. I got it. Today I embrace me, all of me. Laying aside the shame, the insecurities and I am choosing to begin the journey of being confident and joyous in who I really am, bald head and all. Today I did something that I didn’t think I would have had the courage to do before. I got up in front of a room of about 50 women and as the warm tears flowed down my cheeks I took off my wig and showed them ME . They didn’t laugh. They didn’t whisper and tear me down. Instead they cried. They cheered. They embraced. They praised God. They spoke life. THEY LOVED ME, the real me.
This was a defining moment in my life. I took a stance against the enemy and my actions screamed at him, letting him know that I choose to no longer be bound by the shame he wants me to have. In that moment I unlocked some of the chains from my past that still had me bound and I CHOSE TO walk in another level of freedom that Jesus has already purchased for me. In that moment there was a greater level of death to the old me and birth was given to something new. I am not saying that I will never wear wigs again as I wait for healing to manifest BUT I now have a new perspective!
I have always been overly concerned with what others think of me. I always have to put my best foot forward. I have to please. I have to be liked. Filled with pride. The same symptoms that lead to my very bald head. I began to loose my hair because I put too much stress on it with chemicals and weaves. When I first began to loose my hair, the thought of giving up chemicals was not even an option. Why? Because the real me of course was not good enough, not cute enough, no way could I let others see me in my natural state. Deep rooted insecurities birth from past experiences.
Hear me when I say that this is not about whether or not you should put chemicals or extension in your hair. Doing these things pointed to a deeper issue FOR ME (this may not be the case for everyone). When I was told by a dermatologist to stop putting chemicals in my hair, I scoffed at the idea. Go natural and show everyone me, absolutely not. Driven by insecurities and pride I continued the vicious cycle of destroying my hair follicles until they shut down and well, I was left bald with no other option but to wear wigs.
BUT MY GOD IS SO AWESOME. Through a chain of painful events, the healing process began. I have prayed and stood in faith believing the Lord to supernaturally restore my hair. Its nothing for God to just touch my scalp and have hair appear. However, I recognize that God is more concerned about me getting the lesson than the blessing. The blessing can be fleeting but once I get the lesson its lasting and can be applied to other areas of my life guaranteeing more victory. Unveiling my bald head today was necessary for my healing. It went so much deeper than taking off my wig. I was taking off the shame, the hurt from the past, insecurities, conflicting thoughts. I now have even more faith to believe the Lord for restoration of my hair because today inward healing took place and I rejoice!
What is it that you have to take off for healing to begin? A new level of freedom awaits you when you do.
So if the Son sets you free, you are truly free. John 8:36